Life is Not A Movie

Pagi!

Postingan kali ini kurang lebih sama lah sama yang udah udah. Curhat. Ya abis gimana dong, gue ga punya duit buat beli buku diary yang pake gembok :(

Gue baru balik dari kampus abis kelas jam 7.30 tadi. Gue baru sadar, siklus perkuliahan gue dari semester 1 tuh gitu gitu aja: dateng, duduk, makan, pulang. Pulang dari kampus kemana? Ke sekre. Emang ga setiap hari ke sekre sih tapi ya kurang lebih begitu lah.

Bosen banget kaaaaan?

Ga ada gitu cowo ganteng yang ketemu di jalan trus nabrak gue pake mobil mahal nya yang dua pintu trus kita kenalan? Atau yang nabrak gue pake badan macho nya trus nangkep gue sambil tatap-tatapan? Ga ada banget? Oh! Gue tau, pasti karna gue ga pake baju mini dan ga ngiket rambut miring 50 derajat. Atau karna muka gue kurang planga-plongo kaya Alyssa Subandono? Atau...*mega sigh* Hidup gue kalo dipikir-pikir emang monoton banget. Ga seru kalo dijadiin film.

Gue mulai bingung harus nutup tulisan ini kaya apa.

Ciao!

Ayo Vidi, belajar!

Malam!

(Sebenernya gue tau postingan gue ga ada yang baca selain gue seorang, tapi tetep aja gaya tulisan yang gue post seperti ditujukan untuk konsumsi publik. Gapapa lah ya..)


Kali ini gue mau pake bahasa ibu aja, karena gue sudah terlalu lelah bolak-balik buka kamus terjemahan... #maapinvidiyaowoh


Jadi ceritanya, gue lagi di tengah kesibukan mengerjakan tugas-tugas biadab di semester 4 dan pergejolakan emosi dalam mengatur waktu antara latihan, nugas, dan kongkow. Sebenernya sih gak sibuk-sibuk amat tapi sama gue dibikin ribet aja (that's the problem!). Gue masih belum bisa menerima kenyataan bahwa waktu lenjeh-lenjeh gue di kosan sambil nonton film dan nyemil snack dua ribu-an jadi berkurang. Sedih sih dari kemaren IP turun mulu, tapi gimana dong kan gue udah gitu trus ya padahal udah begini tapi jadinya malah ya salah siapa yaudah deh...

Ngomongin IP (dan IPK), sebenernya gak pernah kepikiran sampe se-gini nya sampai beberapa hari yang lalu gue lagi kongkow di sebuah tempat makan, masih di daerah Jatinenjer nan damai dan sunyi (apalagi kalo diatas jam 10), bareng sepupu gue dan dua orang temannya, sebut saja Dono dan Doni. Di tengah obrolan santai dan canda tawa kita (ni geuleuh) tiba-tiba salah satu diantara mereka nanya,


"IPK lo berapa?"


Gue seketika terkejut. Jantung gue serasa dihujam sebilah pisau tajam yang mengoyak organ dalam gue tanpa ampun #gakdeng. Setelah terdiam sekitar 3 detik gue akhirnya menjawab,


"Em..tiga koma tiga deh kalo gasalah"


I kid you not, gue sok-sok an ga yakin gitu untuk memberikan kesan bahwa IPK gue sebenernya bisa aja lebih besar dari itu, padahal mah gue yakin banget emang IPK terakhir gue segitu. Gue sebelumnya masih nyantai aja sama IPK gue ini sampai pada akhirnya muncul lah percakapan yang diluar dugaan gue,


"bohong tuh orang dia tiga koma lima-an" kata sepupu gue

"ih, itumah semester satu" jawab gue

"kenapa kok turun?" tanya sepupu gue

"gatau deh...bukannya IPK emg cenderung turun ya?" jawab gue. aseli ini teh merujuk pada omongan dosen wali gue pas perwalian.

"ah, ngga kok" saut si Dono

"lo tau gak, IPK gue paling gede tuh pas semester 6 (atau 7, gue lupa), tiga koma enam-an" sambung Dono, ngomong ke Doni

Gue lupa si Doni ngomong apa setelah itu sampai akhirnya dia ngomong,

"pas semester satu sih gue lebih dari itu---IPK gue"


Gue seketika ternganga. Rasanya harga diri gue berceceran di bawah meja. Am I that retarded? adalah reaksi spontan yang terlintas di benak gue. Minder? Jiper? Kicep? totally! Sampai akhirnya sampai lah gue pada sebuah keputusan untuk bener-bener belajar di semester 4 ini.


Sampai disini aja dulu deh curhat kali ini. Gue baru inget gue belum ngerjain tugas terjemahan dan baca mater Prose yang mana due date nya besok. Hell yea, The Power of Deadline.


Ciao!

Can't I become pretty as hell?

Good Evening!

This holiday have been quite a lame holiday, seeing that I only go out with my friends TWICE for this one month holiday. But it's okay. I kinda feel this time is a chance to help my parents at home: I do wash the dishes, clean the floor and the table, iron the clothes, COOK some meals. Ah..the last one is a bit strange to me since I have never cooked any food in the house except instant noodle and egg. Oh, I cook spaghetti some months ago but that one was also in an instant version with instant sauce and all the materials within. This time I cook fried rice, sardines, bakwan jagung, fried rice again. I think I'm ready to be married...

Aside from all of the boredom and the cooking, my mind still cant get rid of this one thing that has been filling up my brain for uncertain, illogical reason. I'm not sure I want to tell you what it is. That's embarrassing. 

Okay I'll tell you. 

My high school friends, all of them, already turned in to an enormous, hot chick I could ever imagine them to be. It's not that I screw them for being hot, but I am here getting darker and skinnier and uglier and darker and uglier.. How can I didn't change a bit in this one year and half? This is not fair. Really really not fair. I have tried to do some exercise in order to make my body looks more appropriate in public places, but what I get is the change in my skin color that turned out to be a lot darker than before. Yea, I do outdoor stuff. I'm exercising by running, sit-ups, push-ups, and other warming up stuffs. I even gained biceps muscle! Hell yea, those muscles just make me look more like a skinny, pansy prostitute.

What up!

HELLO!

Gah, its been quite a long time since my last post last year. First thing first, I want to say Happy New Year! to anyone reading this; although, the euphoria of new year itself is already over but there's nothing wrong in greeting people with such a moment, right? hehe.

So, what's buzzing right now?
I have just finished my third semester in college and you know, the scores are nothing but disappointment. I've been expecting for an increased final score yet what I get is upside down. I know I've been such a mess, for unable to avoid any kind of procrastination coming on my way, so that its not difficult for me to comprehend this failure.
Talking about the previous post 'Soul Brother', I was talking about a guy I met at a movie shop and in the end of the passage I wished I could meet him again, and I DID! I finally meet him again in the movie shop. Our second meeting was not actually a meeting; because, I saw him walking down the room, took a slight look inside and then went away. I can say he didn't even consider I was the girl who was secretly-yet-obviously observing him on June 4th last year. Or he did. And that's why he went away... shit.

I have absolutely nothing to say anymore since there are too many things happened in 6 months I can't even organize it to be written here. In addition, I feel blessed for what I have and what I had. I dont want to be regretful for anything that turn out to be something it's not supposed to.

Soul Brother?

There was something really shocking yet interesting happened on June 4th. So here the story began...

I was accompanying a friend of mine to a movie shop somewhere near our boarding house. I had no business over there so I decided to just sit on a couch and started to operate my phone whatsoever. There was this guy, sitting in front of a computer before me, in his black shirts and blue-gray jeans, with glasses and not-so-long and dense hair, copying some movies into his hp flash disk which is accidentally the same as mine, and I was freakishly happy of that stupid coincidence. There is nothing wrong with the guy except he, again, accidentally has some similarities in physical appearance with someone I used to know the previous day. I couldn’t believe of what I saw, at first. I once got an exact gigantic heart attack inasmuch as I thought he was ‘him’! first, I looked at his left hand, because that is the only one side of his hand I could see, and I thought, “I think I have seen that hand before” which is stupid how can there is just one particular shape of hands in the world? Then I started to glare to the top of his body, his face. No, I couldn't see enough of his face to take a conclusion that he is ‘him’ since he was staring at the computer’s monitor, not at me. But my observation didn’t stop there. I looked at his hair; oh my God it was just like the one ‘he’ got! Maybe 85% of similarity because what ‘he’ got is a little bit darker. Then I started to feel more and more of heart beat. I hardly breathed. This was absolutely addictive. The more I observed, the more amount of bizarre thoughts—that made me feel much more like a professional spy—fulfilled my mind.

I don’t actually know what I’m talking about, but that doesn't really have any significant impacts to the story, so don’t mind it. Back to the story, Gentlemen. Okay, ouch, he glared at me. It looked like he noticed that I was observing him for what must had been a solid minute. I immediately stared at my phone as soon as I saw him looking at me. “What the heck! Please, don’t leave so soon” I said to myself with my thumb swiped over the phone’s screen. Then he looked back at the monitor and started to find other movies to copy. Although I was looking at my phone and looked like I’m busy with something in it, yet I could see him through the very end of my eyes now that he was so close in front of me. I began my observation again. He was devastatingly cute, even cuter than the original I have mentioned—‘he’. I had no idea how was this coming up to my day. This totally made my afternoon!

My friend had just finished with her movies and she stood up then paid the charges. She gave me sort of an eye that said “I’m done. We can go now” and I gave her such a glance that said “are you kidding me? Are you saying that I’m about to leave this super cute guy with my thoughts about him hanging unanswered? Are you fucking out of your mind?” but that all just pretty much useless. I took off my ass of the couch so heavily like I was glued, then I put my bag on my left shoulder and left the shop. I walked down the street with half of me was still sitting on that couch staring at him excitedly and the other was here putting one leg to another while my friend kept talking to me whichever I didn't know what she was saying. Could I stay there just a little bit longer. Or, could I meet him on another day. 

Just another stuff you need to know

Well, this is for you..

Story of The Day

Hey guys! How's your day? I've been laying on my bed surfing on internet like crazy since this morning. And I found some great videos on YouTube today. Here are some..

"A Thousand Miles" covered by Alex Goot. He's a really great talented man. He can play guitar, drum, piano, and also singing!  

This one, he didn't do any cover, he's just posting videos (many of them are stupid) on YouTube about his funny experiences. "Every view counts toward charity" yeah he has 2 YouTube channels, one is his main channel and another is for charity called "JumbaFund". He raised so much money from this. Hell yeah I know you guys already hate me for talking too much, "just show us the vid, bitch" whoa okay chill out! Here it is.. 

This is one of his video from "Kevjumba" channel. "I'm not cool" he said.. which actually for me you're beyond cool, Kev <3 p="p">

And this is one of "Jumbafund" channel. "Caring". Look, he's awesome! Oh maybe I'm too in love with you <3 p="p">

Yeah. They're cool. I really mean it.

Okay guys, it's enough for this time. I need to take a break, my eyes get really weary for been staring over the screen for more than 6 hours today. Hope you had a great night, great sleep, great night, great........sleep. I don't even know how to make a good closing line I'm a very bad writer, really. So, bye! :D

The Mummy has just woken up

Whoa! hey, guys. how you are doing? so sorryyyy for been neglecting this blog for ages. The mummy has just woken up-_-_-. Oh, my last post was posted on Ramadhan last year and today I write this one on Ramadhan too ;). Ah, now I'm already in college yeeha! I feel like a new born baby with zero experience, zero knowledge, this is really different from what I've had in high school. I get in English Literature. Class will begin on September 3rd. I kinda feel afraid if I can't survive here, if I can't friend with anyone, if people see me as a freak, or..I dont know so many things I scared of and that's really interfering.

Welcome back!

Hai!! udah lama banget memang ga posting lagi, sempat terlalu jatuh cinta pada Tumblr tapi pada akhirnya sampai juga pada titik jenuh nya. ada 1 kabar bagus kali ini, dijamin ini kabar paling bagus sejagat raya! gue udah bener-bener lepas dari doi men! sekarang udah gak ada lagi yang namanya galau bimbang sedih gundah gulana setiap kali liat doi mention-an mesra sama cewe lain, setiap kali liat doi online facebook tapi tak bertegur sapa, setiap kali inget masa-masa 7bulan penuh sukaduka bersejarah. bahkan sekarang gue ga merasakan getaran-getaran apapun tiap kali ngobrol sama doi (walaupun secara gak langsung) hm..mungkin kalo ngobrol langsung baru berasa kali ya gemeter gimana gitu tapi gue jamin gemeter nya gue itu bukan gemeter-gemeter yang berarti (?) maksutnya ya cuma gemeter karna grogi aja udah lama ga ngobrol dan bukan gemeter karna........cinta. wow! bahkan gue udah lupa rasanya dicintai dan mencintai itu seperti apa, saking membatu nya hati ini setelah kejadian kemaren itu #hiperbola.


oke sekarang waktunya fokus sama masa depan. menikah dengan pria yang dicintai juga termasuk masa depan, tapi kayanya sekarang ini bukan waktu yang pas buat mancing cowo, tapi kalo pasang umpan dulu boleh lah yaaa. mungkin nanti gue dapet gacoan kakak-kakak mahasiswa yang kece2 (amin). oiya selamat berpuasa!! tinggal seminggu lagi kita menang~ jadi inget bulan puasa tahun lalu gue baru kenal sama doi dan lagi masa-masa awal penjajakan gitu *plak* kenapa diinget lagi-___-" yasudahlah intinya, saya sudah 'sembuh' :)

Anything (•̯͡.•̯͡)

suka iseng kalo udah megang kamera, bawaannya pengen semuanya di foto-in. karena kebetulan lagi di kamar, jadi gue asal jepret apa aja yang kira-kira bisa di jepret (?) bawel ah udah langsung aja...Ta Da!!

rada rancu ya kasur gue penuh sama buku isi rumus+angka-angka-_- lagi belajar buat UKK ni gewe B-)  

 saking kurang kerjaan selesai belajar MTK, gerah juga lama-lama liat meja belajar kaya TPA. bukan, bukan Taman Pendidikan Al-Qur'an, tapi Tempat Pembuangan Akhir. yaa karna cuma beresin buku-buku dan map boleh lah daripada kena semprot emak. inilah before-after nya, hm mungkin lebih tepatnya after-before -_-'

ini dia satu dari beberapa novel gue yang paling sering gue baca berulang-ulang. seru, asli deh. 

nah ini nih kartu tanda peserta ujian. cantik ya nomer peserta nya, emang cucok deh cyin sm peserta nya juga~(‾▿‾~) (~‾▿‾)~

dan yang ini.......gambar bikinan temennya temen gue waktu gue nyiapin kado ulangtahun buat si doi. ga nyangka gue masih punya banyak bgt barang-barang kenangan kaya gini. stupid me, he doesn't even keep one of mine I bet(⌣́_⌣̀)

that's it!! penting gak sih? nggak-_- yaa itung-itung ngisi waktu luang aja inimah wokwok. see you next post, bloggie :3

UKK?

UKK = Ujian Kenaikan Kelas = Uh, Ketar Ketir (?) oke stop, sorrry-_- intinya gua deg deg-an nihhhh!!!! gatau deh nih gimana nasib MTK gue nanti (ˇ̩̩̩.ˇ̩̩ƪ) doain yaaa ceman ceman huhu syereemmm

Healing Process

Hai. I'm Vidiana Aulia and I'm on my way to become an 'odinary people' after got a very crazily giant heartbreak attack!! No I don't want to talk about the heartbreak because it is really not interesting. Then you better help me on my healing process right now. Yes I already knew we're just no meant to be, so I stop blaming anybody, eventhough I know by whom this broke up is caused.

The Rose, he gave it to me on my 16th birthday last year, was already lost. I don't know where it is now. But I thank God bcs it really helps me on this healing process, so I have no reason to keep remembering that 'sweet-hurt' momment.

The Sweet Green Batik Dress, he also gave it to me on my 16th birthday last year. I keep it in my closet, when I open the closet I can see it hanging neatly. And I remember he said that his mother who choose the dress. I do really love his mother, she's so nice to me, she treated me like her own daughter, how sweet <3

The point is, now I'm OVER you. no more waste my time sheding tears by looking at your photos and remembering how sweet our relationship was, no more stalking on you whenever and wherever it is, no more paying attention to any girl you flirt to.



We're just not meant to be...

new hair. new look. new problem........

baru kali ini gue nyesel bgtbgt-an selesai potong rambut. super duper EXTREME!!! ada kali 10cm rambut gue yang kepotong (ʃ˘,˘ƪ) semua gara2 MAMAKE!! dia yang mencuci otak si mba pemotong rambut sehingga memotong rambut gue terlalu banyak sehingga gue tak kuasa lagi menahan isak tangis sampai akhirnya ingus pun mengalir perlahan tapi pasti dari hidung gue. Ma, why you be so cruel yesterday (ʃ˘,˘ƪ) selesai di keringin rambut nya gue langsung bangkit dari tempat duduk dan mengacak2 rambut dan segera berjalan cepat menuju pintu hm sepertinya seisi salon memperhatikan dengan mata sedikit melotot dan alis sedikit menggerenyit ya ya I don't care gue udh terlanjur sakit hati sama rambut gue yang baru.

Me want theseee!!

this is sooo kewllll!!!

Mommy I want the left one so damnnnn!!!  (-̩̩̩-͡ ̗--̩̩̩͡ )

A Letter for You

My crib, April 3rd 2011


Hi, I know you don't even want to talk to me for a while. So I write this letter, at least you know what I try to tell you about.

Do you ever think why do I get jealous on you easily? It is because I don't want to lose you.

Do you ever think why do I get angry when you didn't text me just to tell me about your newest activity? It is because I care about you. 

Do you ever think why on earth I do this? It is because I love you. 

Do you ever think why do I love you? I dont need any reason to love you.

If I look back on previous days, I could see you've done everything for me. You bought me flower for My Day. You treated me so special. You made other people envy us for being so romantic. You showed me how you love me. But, why these sweet thingy have to be replaced? You've changed. Yes you do. 

Sometimes I wonder how can you became like this. Sometimes I wonder, is this because of me? Because of my bad habit? Then tell me if it is. So I could change it all and be someone you want me to.

As we know, we have our own minus and plus. Then why don't we try to fix this all together? I'd never stop fight for this. I know and I do really know we could handle it. Lets start the new beginning. I'd like to spend my time with you, walk together beside you, just like what we always do. Can't you see my love for you isn't fake?


I write this letter for you. Hope you read this. I admit my fault. I apologize.

Sincerely, Someone Who Love You

Heyya Bloggies :3

mewmewgukguksshhhmoo~ it's been sooooo long i haven't posted anything here. hm my life sucks this last 2 months. actually, there are so many things i wanna share with you, but i know i cant write 'any-thing' here bcs everybody could read this and i dont want people know my privacy. okay first, i wanna tell you that..................................I LOVE MY BOY!! haha i dont know how come i tell you this but i just want him to know that i always love him all ways :') besides, im planning something for his day and i hope my full effort on this project get a great final in the end :D anyway dont tell him anything abt the project, kay? ;)

marhaban ya ramadhan

hari pertama puasa di bulan ramadhan :D masih semangat bgt tapi pasti ntar ntar udh males2 gitu trus batal sama temen2 ke alfamart wakakakaka (-_-") eh tapi semalem gua ga taraweh abisnya gak ada temen T_T oiya maafin gua ya kalo ada salah :) hmm pasti adalah -_- hehe


oya taugazeeeeeh masa ya gua naksir sama si anu loh 0_0 sumpah gua ga nyangka bakal suka sama dia padahal dulu pas kelas 1 gua yg takut gitu kalo liat dia hahaha -_- udahlah gausah dibahas malooeee u,u hahaha

XI IPS 2

yap sesuai dengan judulnya. gua masuk kelas XI IPS 2. agak suram. ralat: sangat suram. gay, lesbi, freakers, ngumpul di kelas gua. oh God sorry bgt gak ada maksut buat milih2 temen ato jelek2in orang tapi jujur gua gakenal mereka sama sekali dan mereka tuh orang2 yang sangat kontroversial. yang gua kenal disini cuma: arya, satrio, theo, jasmine, huda, nedia, irlin, anggita, amel,......................udah gatau lagi siapa -_- haaaa parah kan HADOOOHH. mau pindah ke IPS 1 deeeeeehh semua yang seru seru ada disitu soalnyaaaa. ah tapi yang namanya IPS pasti seru haha. oke semoga aja kelas baru ini membawa berkah haha.

DixSix bbq night at olive's :D

kita #DixSix pada tanggal 19 juni 2010 bbq-an dirumah olive, walopun ga semuanya dateng, tapi yang dateng sampe 95% nya ko :D thanks ya buat kalian semua, gue bakal kangen banget sama kalian :') ini sedikit foto foto dari acara bbq kita, CEK DIS AWT

ini nih seksi bakar bakarnya hahaha mandi keringet rasain lu wakak

ini kru bakar bakar wakak tapi ehm cewe behel yang di depan ini dia mah numpang foto doang, dia ga bakarin sama sekali -,-

ini pas lagi pada bakar2 sisanya? foto foto bisa kali hahaha

nah ini dia yang pada di dalem makanin popcorn sambil nonton bola beh asyuuu :@

yang diluar? main uno pastinya

ini dia jagung bakar yang udah jadi enak loooh :9

liat deh, meta gigit jagung aja lebay banget ekspresinya -__-"

ini dia sate yang udah mateng tapi belum dibumbuin jadi gak ada rasanya hahaha ehm udah mirip farah quinn belum gue? -_-

piring sama gelas nya dinamain biar ga ketuker hahaha

eis eis eis si lau kece beeuuddhh hahaha

ini pas abis makan2, menunggu ketetapan siapa aja yang mau stay siapa aja yang balik hehe

story of this week

minggu ini minggu minggu nya remedial dan sampe sekarang gua baru remed 2 mapel tapi itu ipa semua huhuhu T__T biologi sama kimia hmm bio sih yg di remed cuma yang ulangan harian yang animalia beh animalia tuh emg ya nyusahin banget udah satu bab aja isinya banyak banget trus ulangannya susah hiiiihh~ untung gue gak remed jepang! sensei tuh kalo ngasih remed ga kira kira ih amit2 remednya bejibun


trus kita drama hari kamis kemaren waaa seru bangeeett gue bagian make up+kostum dong barengan sama olive lingga hehe :D sampe kata meta ada yang nanyain gini "met ke salon mana?" aih berarti make up an kita bagus dong yaa~ (Y) hahaha tapi penjuriannya AMAT SANGAT UNFAIR ugh jijik ih kalo inget juri jurinya


abis drama anak sekelas futsal di TARUNA kita dateng semua kan secara bentar lagi kita pasti pada mencar pas kelas 11 (sedih deh setiap inget ini T_T) pokonya hari kamis itu bener bener nguras tenaga tapi seneng bangeeeettt \(^,^)/ i love you DixSix :*


dan hari ini gue ga sekolah capeeeek banget soalnya lagian anak anak jg pada gamasuk sih haha tapi mereka jalan gitu mau main tenis katanya huhu gue ga ikut deh :( tapi gapapa dirumah gue bisa istirahat penuh haha


enough for today, i'll see you again on my next post bye :)